Saturday, May 29, 2010

The Ticking

The grandfather clock slowly ticks by,
I'm frozen, unable to move,
I'm sure you know why.

I won't ruin the surprise,
It's too good to just tell,
It mainly has to deal with lies,
And I'm certain you and I are going to Hell.

It began with a kiss,
That turned into a nasty fight,
But it was her that you would miss,
While you were with me that night.

You said the three words,
So I believed they were true,
Too bad they're just words,
Not to me, but to you.

I poured out my heart,
Finally letting you in,
Now I'm lost in the dark,
And the blood flow is about to begin.

I warned you,
That this wasn't a good time,
But listening is something you never do,
Still you stole everything that was mine.

Now that I'm soaked in blood,
Would fact make you stay?
Oh, I guess not,
So now it's my turn to fade away.

Friday, May 28, 2010


Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Rainy Days Ahead

Life’s gonna rain down you
When you think everything is perfect
It’ll hit you hard, you won’t even realize
How fast everything fell apart
You’ll come to a fall and feel numbed out
Fighting to pull out isn’t easy
But don’t worry, you’ll make it
There’s gonna be a time where you’ll have to fall
Allow your walls to crash down
Just to help make better times come
As everything rains over you,
You’ve lost yourself with in the droplets
And the rain just won’t stop
Just know it’ll pass
The sun is behind the clouds
It’s never really gone
And when it finally does make its appearance
Just remember,
It’ll disappear again someday
Rainy Days Ahead
And it’s apart of life

Thursday, May 20, 2010

I Hate Twilight — 21


I was starting to get irritated with Alec’s knocking, and although Aro told us not to break anything, I kicked the door down.
Edward was standing in front of a girl, who I guessed was Phoebe. I stared at her, thinking of ways I could make the two of them suffer, when Edward snarled, “What do you want?”
“Aro wants to see the both of you right this moment,” I snapped, for I didn’t like the way he talked to me, besides I didn’t want to be here.
I was in no mind to be patient, so when he didn’t move, I narrowed my eyes, directing my power towards him. The pain lashed through his body, a small smile gracing my face as I saw him crumple to the floor.
“Stop!” Phoebe demanded and to my shock, my gift just stopped. What just happened?
The sound of an annoying voice me out of my thoughts. When my eyes focused properly, I noticed that the stupid human was looking into my eyes. I tried to direct my power at her, but instead of her feeling pain, it reflected onto myself, and I crumpled to the floor just like Edward did moments ago. I let out a pain-filled screech as Alec rushed to my aid.
“Don’t you ever use your gift on me, Edward, or any of the Cullens ever again,” the filthy human spat at me. Oh, how I wanted to kill her slow and painfully. I got off of the floor and pelted out the hotel room with Alec right beside me, also annoyed at what just happened.
We finally made it home, but before I could do anything else, I had to tell Aro the information I’d gathered. I entered the thrown room followed closely by Alec.
“Ah, I see you’re back, but where are Edward and Phoebe?” Aro asked, trying to keep calm. I knew that Aro wanted Edward as one of his guards, and that he wanted this Phoebe girl. I was too angry to say what had happened, so I held my hand out before him. After a few minutes, he let my hand drop, as a smile came to his face.
“Hmm... I want this girl as one of my guards; just think of all the power she would have once she is turned,” he said happily, looking at his brothers. “We are going to pay the Cullens a visit. Gather, everyone.”
I nodded, not saying a word as I walked out of the room with Alec by my side.


I was so happy that Phoebe had finally accepted Edward. I told Rosalie, but she didn’t believe me. I was running around the house, getting everything ready for Edward’s and Phoebe’s return, when Esme walked into the room, confused.
“What’s going on, dear?” she asked in her motherly voice.
“Edward’s coming home with his mate!” I said cheerfully, bouncing on the balls of my feet.
“He has a mate? He didn’t tell me.” Esme looked so sad and hurt.
“Esme, he didn’t say anything because she is, well, different. She wouldn’t even talk to him, and he’d been courting her for a while. He didn’t want to get your hopes up,” I explained, as the emotions washed away and was replaced with understanding.
The front door flew opened and in walked an ecstatic yet slightly worried Edward, with a sleeping Phoebe snuggling into his chest.
I smiled at him, before he walked upstairs to his room.


I gently placed Phoebe onto my couch, then climbed onto it, pulling her into my arms. I watched my love sleep as I played with her hair. I really didn’t feel like talking to anyone at the moment. I was too busy thinking about what Aro wanted with Phoebe. I already knew that he wanted me as his guard, but I don’t know.


I woke up on something cold that was playing with my hair. I opened my eyes to see a well muscled body. I blushed a little, sitting up. I wiped the sleep from my eyes and looked around, before my eyes settled back on Edward.
“Morning, love.”
“Morning,” I said as I stifled a yawn with my hand. I got off the couch to stretch, feeling a set of eyes on me. I opened my mouth to say something when Edward scooped me up into his arms.
“I love you,” he said looking into my eyes, making me almost melt.
“I love you, too,” I whispered back, leaning up to place my lips to his in a sweet morning kiss.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

I Hate Twilight — 20

Edward’s growl was followed by a banging on the door. I looked at the door, confused, as Edward continued to growl and glare at it.
“Edward, who is it?” I whispered, as I buried my face into the crook of his neck. He looked me in the eyes, planting a light peck on my lips.


There was no way I was letting them take her from me! I held my angel closer to me as she buried her face into the crook of my neck. I loved the feel of her in my arms and I was over the moon that she loved me back. I was finally going to be able to do all the things I could only dream of, if I could dream.
“Edward, who is it?” my loved asked, and all I did was look down at her and place a gentle kiss on her soft lips. The banging grew louder as I tried to control my growling. After half an hour, I knew they weren’t about to give up, and I was quite surprised they hadn’t already knocked the door down.
The next thing I know, I’m on my back against the floor; I guess I thought too soon!
Standing there in the doorway as Jane and Alec. I gently placed my love on the floor and stood up in front of her protectively. I didn’t like the way Alec was looking at what was mine, and I didn’t like the evil thoughts Jane was having. I growled at the two, snapping them both out of their fantasies.
“What do you want?” I snarled out at them.
“Aro wants to see the two of you right this moment,” Jane retorted in her usual cold voice. I didn’t move. I wasn’t going to let that bastard touch the most important person to me. I felt a sudden flush of pain flood over me, as I crumbled to the floor for not obeying her.
“Stop it!” Phoebe demanded, and surprisingly Jane stopped, against her will.
I looked at my Phoebe with love and pride as I got off of the floor and wrapped my arms around her. I rested my head on hers as she tried to looks me over. A big smile infected my face at the fact that she cared.
“I’m fine,” I whispered into her ear as she relaxed into my arms for a few seconds, before she pulled away from me and walked toward the two vampires in the doorway. I watched her in worry and pain, and tried to grab her arm.
“Stop!” she command, and I saw something flash in her eyes as the words escaped her kissable lips.
I froze, my arm still in the air. I looked at my love to see her standing in front of Jane, looking her in the eyes. Concern, pain, anger flooded through me as I only just remembered Jane’s gift. As I couldn’t move, the only thing I could do was watch the love of my life be suspended in pain.
I waited for her howls of pain, and was delightfully pleased and shocked when Jane’s face was the one that had twisted into pain. She fell to the floor, her brother rushing to her side.
“Don’t you ever use your ‘gift’ on me, Edward, or any of the Cullens ever again,” Phoebe spat the words out with venom as her eyes flashed again.
She walked back over to me and moved my arm. “I’m sorry,” she whispered into my chest, making me shiver in delight.
“Don’t worry about it,” I replied, wrapped my arms where they belonged.
I looked back to the door to see that both Jane and Alec were no where in sight.
“I think we should go back home,” I whispered, burying my face into my angel’s hair.
When I didn’t get an answer, I looked down to find that she had fallen asleep. I smiled, lifting her up and jumped out the window, running towards home.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

I Hate Twilight — 19

He clung onto me as if his very life depended on it. His shaking was slowly dying down so I rested my head on his muscular shoulder, letting the cold engulf me. But he reluctantly let me go as soon as my stomach let out an angry growl.
I walked over to the phone and called room service, sensing that Edward wouldn’t want to go out anywhere.
I ordered what I wanted to eat and walked over to where Edward was sitting. I sat on his lap and curled up, resting my right side on his chest, he wrapped his arms around me keeping me in place.
If someone were to tell me a few weeks ago that I’d be willingly in Edward’s arms, I would have killed them. But here I was, with my head on his shoulder as he whispered sweet nothings into my ear. I moved my head away from his shoulder, also uncurling myself, as I placed my hand on his cold cheek, letting him lean into it.
“Edward, please don’t do that again. And I... Edward, I...” I was about to spill my feelings out to him when a knock on the door echoed throughout the room, making Edward growl irritably.
I got out of his arms and made my way towards the door, but before I could open it, cold arms snaked their way around my waist as I felt a cold chest press against my back, which made me roll my eyes. I was starting to accept Edward, and I was starting to fall for him. Hard.
I opened the door to see a boy about the same age as Edward and I.
“Your food, Mrs. Cullen,” he said as I looked at him strangely, feeling Edward shift a little as my eyes snapped onto him with a glare.
“Thank you,” I managed in an almost calm voice.
Once the door was shut again, I moved out of Edward’s arms. “Well?” I snapped, knowing that he longed for that title to be true.
I hugged him around his waist with an irritated sigh, feeling him kiss my head. I was still mad at him for everything, and I didn’t want to love or even like him — but I knew that I indeed loved him.
I rubbed my hand up and down his chest as I buried my face into his neck. I broke away from him, making him wine, but I ignored him and just ate my food.
Once full, I stood at the balcony looking out into the distance, when Edward appeared next to me.
“What, Edward?” I sighed, annoyed.
“I love you,” he said, burying his face into my hair. I opened my mouth to say something... anything.
I wanted to push him away and tell him to leave me alone, but my body betrayed me. I turned into his arms to wrap mine around him, and placed a soft kiss on his lips. I muttered the three words that I would have never said to him a few days ago: “I love you.”
I saw his face light up with a smile that made me smile in return.
He held me closer and said, “You don’t know how much this means to me.”

Saturday, May 8, 2010

I Hate Twilight – 18


I loved the kisses we shared in the car, and I was ecstatic that Phoebe was finally accepting me. But now that ‘woman’ was trying to take my angel away from me. No, I couldn’t have that. No one was going to take her away from me.
I entered my mate’s house with my arm protectively around her. She walked around stuffing items into a bag, not knowing that the blob in the car was trying to separate us. I wasn’t having any of it, so I walked up to my Phoebe, turning her around.
“I love you, and nothing is going to take you away from me,” I said, looking into my love’s eyes.
I knocked her out and picked her up bridle style. I ran as fast I could away from that woman, away from Forks. But mostly away from the people who would try to take what’s mine away from me.
I stopped in Finland at a gothic hotel. Entering the hotel, I met a few weird looks but after I explained that my wife was asleep, they all turned back to what they were doing.
I tried my hardest to ignore all the rude and snide comments that were aimed at my love as I walked to the reception. I placed my love gently on the seat beside the front desk as I paid for our room, then picked her up again. A boy around the age of seventeen came over and picked up Phoebe’s bag, while giving her a dazed look.
“I’d like to get to my room now,” I said rudely, not liking the way that human was looking at what is mine. He snapped out of his daze blushing, and walked up the stairs. He kept looking back until we reached the room. My anger was starting to get the better of me, as I heard the thoughts of this stupid boy.
“Well, have a good stay,” he said, looking at my wife to be. He looked down as confusion filled his face, but I just opened the door and slammed it in his face.
Walking into the bedroom, I lay her down on the bed. I laid next to her, pulling her into my arms. I sighed in content as I pulled her closer to me, taking in her intoxicating scent. My mind drifted as I wondered what I was going to do next. I knew that there was a possibility that she would hate me for knocking her out, but I just couldn’t lose her. I got odd the bed and started to paced back and forth, thinking.
I want to marry her and have children with her. I want to change her, but the problem is that she might not want that, and I don’t have it in me to force her to. A soft thud snapped my out of my thoughts. Wondering what it was, I looked over at the bed to find my angel on the floor tangled in the blanket.
I ran over to help her but she just pushed me away, giving me a burning glare that broke my heart. I slowly held out my hand to help her up, but she just ignored it, standing up herself.
“Phoebe, please,” I implored in pain.


“Phoebe, please.” His pained voice filled my ears, breaking my heart a little. I looked to the floor not wanting that stupid crush to come back, but alas, it did. I sighed and stepped towards him, slowly and hesitantly wrapping my arms around him.
“I’m so sorry about what I did, but I couldn’t let that thing take you away from me. I couldn’t let that happen. I love you, Phoebe. I love you so much,” he whispered into my ear, making my insides melt.
He buried his face in my hair, inhaling. His voice sounded like he would have been crying if he could; I could hear dry sobs escape from his shaking form. I’d never seen this side of him.
Did I really mean that much to him?

Thursday, May 6, 2010

I Hate Twilight – 17

As my lips touched his cold ones, he froze in shock before he started to kiss me back.
I’d never admit this out loud, but I liked it. The sparks I felt were good and I felt so safe with him. I pulled away before he could deepen the kiss, and turned to look out the window completely forgetting why I wanted his attention in the first place.
I was watching the trees zoom past, feeling Edward’s arms tighten around me. I looked at him confused until he pecked my lips. I turned back to the window, hiding my small smile.
We reached my old house a few minutes later. I didn’t want to move again as I was starting to like Edward, much to my displeasure.
I felt Edward let go of my waist so I could get out of the car. I only made a few steps from the car until cold arms enclosed around my waist again. I looked up at the uneasy and pained vampire. I started thinking about removing his arms but I didn’t, I needed someone and that person at the minute was Edward. He looked down at me forcing a smile, holding me tighter to his body.
“Now dear, go in and pack your things then say goodbye to your boyfriend!” the woman’s voice shrieked out as we were about to walk through the red front door.
I walked in looking around, picking up my belongings and placing them into a bag. I was about to walk back out of the front door to my doom, when Edward turned me around. “I love you, and nothing is going to take you away from me,” he said, looking at me insanely which scared me. I tried to make a run for the door, but was knocked out before I could even take a step.

I woke up with a sore head. I untangled myself from the black silk sheets, only to stumble then fall onto the floor with a soft thud. I glanced around my new surroundings, not knowing where I was until I remembered that Edward had knocked me out. Anger and hatred boiled my blood as the slightest feelings I had for him evaporated within seconds.

Monday, May 3, 2010

I Hate Twilight – 16


After Phoebe shoved my arm away, I felt like something was missing. The warmth and electricity I always felt when we touched was gone; I longed for it to return. I wanted to hold her warm, soft body in my arms, have her head lay on my chest as I run my finger through her silky brown hair, to have her look at me in that way..
I was rudely snapped out of my thoughts by the grey-haired woman in the driver’s seat, who was coughing me and my love’s attention. I didn’t like the look of this woman one bit, but my dislike for her quickly turned to hatred. I looked at her in disgust about what she was thinking about me. I turned furious at the snide thoughts she had of my love.
“Well come on dear, we don’t have all day. I’m your care worker,” she said to Phoebe, flashing her rotting yellow teeth in what she thought was a stunning smile. I watched as Phoebe climbed into the back seat instead of the passenger side. My eyes flew to the woman once again.
There was no way I’ll leave my Phoebe with that blobby creature. I climbed into the back with my love, and it surprised me when she said nothing and clung to my arm.
I smiled at my Phoebe pulling her to my chest, and instead of protesting, she actually snuggled into me more. I was jumping for joy inside.


I watched the car drive off, worried. I knew Edward was with Phoebe in the car, but how will he react when he finds out?
I looked at the floor as I felt two strong arms enclose around my waist. I spun around in Jasper’s arms, placing a light kiss on his lips.
“Everything will be fine, you saw them both together in the end,” he whispered into my ear as I rested my head on his chest, wondering how it would feel if he had a heartbeat.


There was something about this woman that didn’t seem right. I was so relieved when Edward climbed into the back seat next to me, but I will never tell anyone that.
The feel of Edward’s arms wrapping around me snapped me out of my thoughts, and I just felt so safe and loved, like nothing could harm me, and I knew for a fact that Edward would never let me get hurt.
I needed comfort badly so I cuddled into Edward’s chest, still looking at this woman driving us to my house. She had protested when Edward got in the car, but after a deadly glare from me she just shut up. But I wonder why she protested in the first place. I mean, at first she thought we were girlfriend and boyfriend, so why would she object? That thought about me and Edward make my cheeks heat up just a little, and I’m sure that he’d heard the blood rush to my cheeks, and could feel the extra warmth on his chest.
I titled my head upwards to see Edward staring at the woman with uneasy eyes. I didn’t trust her either. So to grab his attention I did the unthinkable: I kissed him.